Images That Express Mixed Feelings

"The poem below holds two stories.

On the surface, it is a memory from when I was seven years old, lying on a cold floor, absorbing the physical consequences of my mother’s deeply overwhelmed and 'befuddled' life. 

But looking back, I realize this poem also tells the story of my entire life.

For decades, 

I was 'traveling without light'—moving through the world but spiritually adrift.

This is the story of a childhood wound, but more importantly, it is the story of a lifelong journey toward ultimate surrender and enduring Love."

_______

 

I attended a Healing Through Poetry Group facilitated through the Behavioral Health Service in which I am a Client.

This Group happened before the Pandemic about 2018 I think?

The Days Poetry Assignment was to write about something that evokes strong emotion.

We needed to describe the circumstances then Express what we wanted to say about it.

I was about seven years old when this happened.

 I  found this Poem while Cleaning

 

                                                   

                - The Journey -

I felt your Struggle that Morning
as I lay defenseless on the cold floor 
grasping the toys I failed to secure
in their proper place
i sensed your presence after watching you left the room
when the leather made contact my esteemed backside 
with for decisively Antagonized responses 
to a befuddled life
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Traveling without light 
In contact with the Earth
Unable to sense a destination
Until surrender I Accepted....................................Praying Your Name
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LOVING YOU ALWAYS

- Scott Wajda

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